Andrew Maz

A year ago today
I found magic
In the most wonderful way
I met you
I touched you
I smelled you

And I knew
From the moment you let go
That I never wanted to be
Apart from you
Ever again

Though frightened
And unsure
I let my heart go
Wherever you went
I just had to know
If there was any possibility
That you saw some magic in me

Maybe
Even if briefly
I touched your heart
As you touched mine
And lifted you
As you lifted me
To a place where
Fear doubt and sorrow
Are merely afterthoughts

A year ago today
I found you

A year ago today
I knew
My journey had just begun

You and I
A year ago today

Until forever
And a day

For Trina
October 4, 2010

The moment I
Heard your voice
I wanted to know you

The moment I
Saw your face
I wanted to be with you

The moment I
Touched you
I wanted to stay

I always believed
That you were out there
Searching for me
As I searched for you

I knew we would meet
Unexpected
Sudden
Certain

But rather than realizing
It was really you
I sought
Reasons
Doubts
A foolish attempt
To avoid the truth

Because the moment
I touched you
Held you
Kissed you
I knew

You are the one

And if you will

I will walk
Hand in hand
With you
Until the end of time

The other night
Under the full moon
I met an angel

Wonderful

Wonderful

Wonderful

It is in these quiet moments when I hear my own thoghts louder than I’d like.

I’m not exactly where I’d like to be these days, but it is better than where I was.

And I have recently discovered that unless I can learn to forgive, I will never truly be free of what has transpired.

I grow weary of waiting and wanting.

The wind blows

Fierce
like my heart

Out of control

Passionate

Everything it touches
is moved

The wind is pure

Powerful
Honest

It shows no favor

My heart
can be like the wind

Pure

Powerful

Honest

I remember

Words
Touches
Kisses
Sleepless nights
Lazy mornings
Journeys
Laughter
Tears
Surprises
Sorrow
Loneliness
Adventures
Running
Biking
Falling
Snow
Warm water
Moon jellies
Singing
Dancing
Skating
First kiss
Last kiss
Fear

Alone
Forgotten
Insignificant
Memory

I remember

Someday
Memory

I can forget about you if I want to
You’d cease to exist in a moment
Free from my mind
Free from my heart
Is that what you want

I can live without you
Nothing would really change
No thoughts of you
No single memory
Is that what you want

I know what I feel
Is close to the truth
I know what I believe
Brings me closer to you

I know my heart
Is stronger than I
I know my mind
Will help me survive

But there are moments
Trapped in my thoughts
When you are close
Enough to touch
To hold
To kiss
To love

Is that what you want

What do I want

You

There are a thousand words
I could say
But they would all be in vain
I know in time
I will forget you

But seeing you only reminds me

For a moment
We were connected
Closer than I dared
In a very long time
And just as quickly
We were apart

I used to lie awake
Wondering
If you ever thought back
To those moments
But when I see you
I know you have not
I am simply a fragment
Maybe even
A mistake

I used to believe
Somehow we’d find a way
Out of this silence
Your eyes tell me otherwise

We all seek ways
To protect ourselves

You chose to forget

I have remembered

Someday
You’ll finally be a memory
A thought
A silhouette
Of another time

Someday
I’ll barely recall
Your touch
The heat from your lips
The taste of your flesh
As you pull away from me

Someday
I’ll forget your laughter
Your smile
Your voice
Your eyes

Someday
I’ll no longer remember
Running my fingers
Down your spine
Past your legs
To the edges of you

Someday
I’ll stop waking up
Thinking of you
Felling the pain

Someday
You
Like the others before
Will cease from the present
Only to become
A fading image
In a book
Full of yesterdays

STOP

Moving so fast
Running, jumping, playing
Moving
Back and forth
Side to side
Round a round

Keep yourself
Distracted, confused, occupied
Not enough time
To understand
Comprehend
Believe

All you do
Is run, jump, play
Far way
Never

STOP

Feelings so intense
Words so strong
Thoughts so loud
Can’t begin to
Involve

NEVER

Moving so fast
Run, jump, play
Back, side, round

Emotions so involved
To face

NEVER

STOP